Я (September 29, 2019)

Many years ago, I came up with sixteen geometric symbols, the first one of which came straight from Kandinsky (“My Symbols,” November 7, 1993). I drew and painted them over and over again for many a year. My Cave Art Now cycle is teeming with these stark symbols. Quite a few among them have gone through a number of variants. The second symbol I came up with is the one by Kandinsky with a square eye added to it. And I have always called it “I” because it reminds me of the letter Я, the last one in the Russian alphabet, which spells “ya” in Russian. This means “I” both in Russian and Serbo-Croatian of my youth in Belgrade, which I now call Bosnian-Croatian-Serbian or BCS after the international court in the Hague dealing with war crimes in former Yugoslavia (“BCS,” January 11, 2012). Whenever I spot this symbol among my paintings, I immediately spell it out as “ya” in Russian or “ja” in BCS. The reason behind this little trick of mine is simple enough. Namely, Я is the mirror image of R, and this is the first letter of “Ranko,” my given name. The only conundrum in this story is that it has taken me close to thirty years to put it into words. Perhaps I have been ever-so-slightly embarrassed by my obsession with my own self?